A weakness for love
Ever since I can remember I have had a weakness for love and the affection of a man. As a young girl growing up my father was not in my home. I have known my father all my life but I did not have a relationship with him. When I was born my parents tried the marriage thing...It did not work out. So they divorced after less than a year of marriage. During their separation my dad was hit by a drunk driver which as a result confined him to a wheelchair. For the last eighteen years my father has been in a wheelchair learning everyday how to do everything over again....Most things that we as walking beings take for granted. My dad will never walk again, he is sick often from fluid building up in his body, one entire side of his body is paralyzed and he has been learning to speak all over again. His speech has improved dramatically over the years though. Since I live so far away from my dad and only see him once a year I fear I may never get to know him. My father has loved me all my life but he will never will able to show me that love and affection I required as a young woman. We do not talk on the phone very often because it is quite frustrating trying to understand what he is trying to tell me. I think because of not having a father figure in my life for ten years has somewhat had an effect on my growth. I seek acceptance from men and we all know many out there want only to harm you. I have been trying to make a change in myself....I know I do not need a man but like any other woman I want the love and affection of a man. This is something I will have to cope with in order to make it in this "man's world."
posted by A Rare Commodity @ 6/23/2006 03:55:00 PM
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You don't have a weakness for me. Shame.
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How's this for irony...my husband. Yep, I said MY HUSBAND is a Math genius so this would peek his interest. The date I started my website is our wedding anniversary nine years later! Wow, see how God works! I knew this man was destined to be mine! I love you Lord and I love my husband. I am so grateful to God for leading and opening my eyes!
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