Love & Me
Love & MeMy friend said my posts have been all mushy...I'm a girl what can I say. Anyway.....this one is even mushier so you have been PREWARNED, lol.
Love is a strong point in my life. I love MY LORD AND SAVIOR, JESUS CHRIST, I love LIFE, I love MY FAMILY, FRIENDS, and most importantly I love MY LIFE!!
I have for too long relied on the love of others, sometimes too much. I am often in turn hurt by people of the opposite sex. I usually fall too hard and too quick to a sweet talking man who catches my eye. After numerous heartbreaks and letdowns I have decided to make a change in myself. I would not necessarily say I am hard on men but I refuse to let them walk over me any longer. I stand FIRM in my decision.
Just recently I was introduced to a man who is a few years older than me. Personally I have always had a fear of talking to older men but since we are just friends, its all good. Anyway he and I have been building this friendship over the last month. I have spent a lot of my time with him and often I wonder am I falling for him??
I know I'm not but since my time is precious I wonder why am I with him daily if he is only my friend. (a good friend of mine asked me the same question, I have no answer for her.)
You know the song...you say he's just a friend, lol. I am constantly reminded of that song.
Each morning I wake up............... he is on my mind.......before bed every night he is usually the last person I've talked to. I know we may not ever be anything more than friends........but I believe, one day, things will change. lol.
We have both admitted that we like each other but our lives go in different directions. I am content with being his friend!
I am well aware that men come and go in the lives of women. Like most women the concept of love is nothing new in my life; I've been in love twice in my life. I've been hurt, felt used, mistreated and unappreciated. A man can tear down a woman and never know. I am not a victim of mental, emotional or sexual abuse....my heart goes out to those women. As a I bring this to a close I just want to say to my "friend" I like you a lot...I mean "I really like you" we may never be anything more than what we are today...may not share anything more but just remember we were friends first and that's how I want it to end.
posted by A Rare Commodity @ 6/26/2006 02:32:00 PM
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