Mixture of feelings....no title required!!
Man it all started as a normal day, my usual work, tutoring, and hanging with my beau. I thought it would end just the same. Not as exciting as I hoped for. It's been exactly one month and approx. one hour since he told me he was willing to give me the title if that's what I wanted. An unusual anniversary...but I know he's not the mushy type so it was a regular day besides its only been one month, ha.
His response when I said guess what today is....lol the obvious I can't even remember exact words but know it was not that nice but hey I shrugged that off cuz I already know how he is.
After watching a crazy but rather interesting movie about pedophiles, " the woodsman" I told him I was going to lay down since he was playing the game and this particular one freaks me out. So I laid in bed waiting for him to get tired enough to turn the game off and come lie down. It didn't take long, he finally came. He thought I was sleep.
After about ten minutes of laying there I decided it was time to go home, so I got up and headed for the door. Nothing out of the ordinary. I already told him I was not staying all night....I have a test in the morning for my 9:30 AM class. He was not too happy.
I can never seem to understand the frustration he feels, it bothers me that I leave so late in the eve as well but we both know I have to get up early. All I ask is that he understands that.
Good music played as I drove home, "take me as I am"
by Mary J and "It's a thin line between love and hate" author unknown.
Out of hurt and frustration I called the girl who always and I mean always calls me when something or someone is bothering her. My sweet dear best friend, who happened to be in bed. Even though she wakes me out of my deep sleep quite often I only kept her up for a moment. She said she had an early class, shit so do I but apparently I called you cuz I needed someone to talk to. Reason why I feel I have no true friends. Only one I can depend on is my momma!
I can't think of one person I can call in the middle of the night to vent to! She didn't sound interested in my problems anyway, its bad enough she and him do not care for each other, shit which is so crazy cuz they don't know each other.
Anyway he did call when I was on the phone but I chose not to answer because I was upset at what he referred to me as. He tried to justify him not understanding things that I do by saying "I was young." That pissed me off so I really was leaving no bye no nothing. I'm only "young" when its f ing convenient for people around me.
But its 2:30 AM so I am about to hit the bed and rest so I can start over new in the morning......its good to be able to write out my problems.
Oh yea you ask what are my issues...well my blogger name is "weakness4luv" did you think I was kidding? men, sex, and understanding self-worth. Yea thats me all wrapped up in this 5'4'' body of pure lust to a man's eye.
Take it in.........I'm out, one.
More to come I was just too tired to expound.
His response when I said guess what today is....lol the obvious I can't even remember exact words but know it was not that nice but hey I shrugged that off cuz I already know how he is.
After watching a crazy but rather interesting movie about pedophiles, " the woodsman" I told him I was going to lay down since he was playing the game and this particular one freaks me out. So I laid in bed waiting for him to get tired enough to turn the game off and come lie down. It didn't take long, he finally came. He thought I was sleep.
After about ten minutes of laying there I decided it was time to go home, so I got up and headed for the door. Nothing out of the ordinary. I already told him I was not staying all night....I have a test in the morning for my 9:30 AM class. He was not too happy.
I can never seem to understand the frustration he feels, it bothers me that I leave so late in the eve as well but we both know I have to get up early. All I ask is that he understands that.
Good music played as I drove home, "take me as I am"
by Mary J and "It's a thin line between love and hate" author unknown.
Out of hurt and frustration I called the girl who always and I mean always calls me when something or someone is bothering her. My sweet dear best friend, who happened to be in bed. Even though she wakes me out of my deep sleep quite often I only kept her up for a moment. She said she had an early class, shit so do I but apparently I called you cuz I needed someone to talk to. Reason why I feel I have no true friends. Only one I can depend on is my momma!
I can't think of one person I can call in the middle of the night to vent to! She didn't sound interested in my problems anyway, its bad enough she and him do not care for each other, shit which is so crazy cuz they don't know each other.
Anyway he did call when I was on the phone but I chose not to answer because I was upset at what he referred to me as. He tried to justify him not understanding things that I do by saying "I was young." That pissed me off so I really was leaving no bye no nothing. I'm only "young" when its f ing convenient for people around me.
But its 2:30 AM so I am about to hit the bed and rest so I can start over new in the morning......its good to be able to write out my problems.
Oh yea you ask what are my issues...well my blogger name is "weakness4luv" did you think I was kidding? men, sex, and understanding self-worth. Yea thats me all wrapped up in this 5'4'' body of pure lust to a man's eye.
Take it in.........I'm out, one.
More to come I was just too tired to expound.
posted by A Rare Commodity @ 10/12/2006 02:07:00 AM
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