Regression
As I said this will not be a "gushy" post. Just something I wanted to elaborate on and reasons for why I do somethings.Regression....
I am not quite sure why the concept of finishing school and losing weight, for instances are my not main focuses in life. I view life as something quite different at times. Granted I knew all while growing up I was going to attend a four year university, graduate and go to Med school. As time progressed my mind began to regress. Which is rather sad if you ask me. I often miss high school. The excitement of going to class, finishing my work (that I understood) and preparing for the weekend. The usual Friday night football or basketball game and the mall & movies on most Saturdays. Everything was structured. I knew what was coming. NO RESPONSIBILITIES.
Now some of you may assume I do not have any now because I reside with my parents (that's bs) it only further let me recognize that you really do not know me and your making assumptions based on something you think. Which in fact your only making an ass out of yourself.
Anyway back to topic at hand. School.
I used to love school, could not wait for Monday. It was all social for me. Doing school work was no big thing. I completed assignments in no time flat. I enjoyed seeing people, mingling because at home being an only child I did not have those luxuries. I live hundreds of miles away from my family so weekend visits were out of the questions.
Even in HS I spent a great deal of my time away from home......always at friend's houses. That concept is nothing new. I always could say I had a second home.
Home was a place where rules were enforced and rooms were quiet. I was usually home alone which had its perks at moments, but I grew lonely at times.
Basically I am just trying to say sometimes I don't look to the future as mode of getting out the house and establishing my own life, I see it as me, Brandi having to grow up and take care of myself. Live alone either on a different side of town or an entire different state. All my life I have been alone so I am in no rush to get to that point in my life; yet and still I do want to take care of myself and appreciate becoming a self-suffcient adult.
Hopefully as time goes on I will develop that "go getter" attitude so college will become something I've completed in my past. I just hope that time comes soon because I am so sick of school.
posted by A Rare Commodity @ 10/26/2006 02:06:00 PM
2 Comments:
there was a time blacks was not aloud in college
Because of that are saying I should be proud and just do it?
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