My Personal Thoughts

Let's Keep IT Real

The next few posts I submit will be real. I'm gonna put a couple things out there..... my thoughts of what to do about the situation. I hope someone reading this will leave a comment and provide words of advice.

The last few weeks I have been hanging out with a guy friend of mine. We met in middle school. Over all the years I have known him I have not ever been interested in him and anyway possible. Just not for me I guess. Well we got in contact through myspace and exchanged numbers months ago. He would text every now and again to say hey. One day he informed me that we still liked me from school, wow. Anyway he knew I had a man but told me if it didn't work out to consider him because he is a nice guy. That thought flew through my head.

Time passed and I was single. He ended up texting me again about a job opportunity in town. I told him I would pray that we got it because it was a great opportunity and he really wanted to move back home. Well he was hired for the job and had been working for a little while. We went out to play pool one night, it was a lot of fun...catching up and sharing current happenings in our lives. Found out he was extremely interested in this girl from HS that his boy had dated. Why am I saying all this? Hmmm

Well I was single and its nice to catch up with real people so him and I chilled together on a few occasions. He talked about his new love interest and I mentioned mine.
With all this time spent I realized more and more the type of person I wanted to be with. I started to better appreciate what I once had. I sat and watched him eat a couple times and I was completely grossed out. Never thought I could lose my appetite from watching someone else. The way he talks loud as if he is craving attention. That turned me off. I'm too reserved for others to hear my conversation and know exactly what is being discussed. I could go on and go about things about him which made me realize what I did not want in my man. Oh
and to top things off, he brought a grill! GROSS

The other night he came by the house to pick me up and knowing how my parents are I told him to come to the door. Well he came in and introduced himself and I did not know that thing was in his mouth. At least I think it was. We were walking around the store looking for candy and he could hardly talk because of it. I realized how flashy he really was. I don't like guys like that. Its good to have esteem but when you want to be noticed all the time that is a huge turn off, at least for me. But anyway I said all this to say.....please please when your out with a girl, don't put on a show to try to impress her. If she truly likes you then you can be yourself and everything will fall into place.

posted by A Rare Commodity @ 6/08/2007 01:30:00 PM