My Personal Thoughts

Life Changing Events

Last week I found out that my dad passed away. My dad has been living his life the last 19 years in a wheelchair. He was paralyzed as the result of a car accident. On November 1988 my dad was hit by a drunk driver. I was young when my dad was hit and I do not remember much about him when he was mobile. I have one good memory and a laughable not so good one. I love my dad with all the heart but I owe it to him and myself to be successful in life. My mom told me once she received news back in 1994 about her father passing that she let go all of the losers in her life. I know it is time for me to do the same!

For too long I have let mediocre guys in my life. It is TIME for a change. I had my life prophesied by an apostle. He told me somethings that I really needed to hear. Letting go was one of the first things he said to me. Now most people probably thought he was talking about me letting go of my father and realizing it was his time to go. That was part of it but there are other things I have been holding on to. I have less than 21 days to get it together and I have every intention on doing exactly that.

So to you if you read this. I have loved you more than you ever loved me, but the time has come for me to let go and realize my fantasies for us will never come true. Its one thing to tell someone you love them and want to be with them but actions speak louder than words. You can say it, shoot you can yell it to the world but if your actions never show as such then it means nothing to me. I've never asked for much. All I wanted was for you to show me you loved me rather than me trying to read between the lines. Its time for me to live in true reality. Its time for me to work on myself and finish God's will for my life. I can only live for myself and I can't let anyone else pull me down from my lifetime goals and aspirations.

Momma told me real love doesn't hurt......EVER! Hmmm, and I believe that!

posted by A Rare Commodity @ 7/23/2007 10:30:00 PM