Christians- By Maya Angelou
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'.
"I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven.
"When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
And need Christ to be my guide.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!
Share this with somebody who already has this understanding, asreinforcement. But more importantly, share this with those who do not have a clear understanding of what it means to be a Christian, so that the myth that Christians think they are "perfect" or "better than others" can be dispelled.
My Praise Report
This past summer I enrolled in three courses at Washburn in hopes of getting ahead in school. I took jazz history, statistics, and aerobics (damn PE credit) anyway long story short....I failed my jazz history course which was online...I know dumb move for me. Anyway since I did not pass my G.P.A. dropped drastically and my financial aid was DENIED!
I had to write a letter asking for that Wackburn reinstate my finanical aid so I could go to school......through prayer and the grace of GOD my money was given back to me. So here I am EXCITED I can go to school!!
Without my loan money I did not know what I was going to do...I told my best friend about it and she offered to give me her refund check from school of $1500....talk about a BEST FRIEND...THANK YOU SME!!
Well thats my praise report...Thank You Lord for again answering my prayers.
Unappreciated Part 2
For this is the day that the Lord hath made and I will rejoice and be glad in it.
As I sit here upon the beginning of a new day; for it is 12:05 AM, Monday, August 14, 2006. I am unable to sleep for the time being so I just will take it as "my time".......yesterday morning I had the privilege of participating in 8am service, Sunday school, 11am service, and 3:30pm service...I say it is a privilege because not everyone can say they woke up this morning in their right mind. Some of us did not even wake up at all.
For I have a new attitude...I will go longer wallowed in the mud and complain over the small things because the Lord has been far too good to me. Everyday He shows me new things...knowledge and wisdom that I can apply to my own life. My Sunday school lesson was about "Giving Generously," which in a sense has a lot to do with the things I have been struggling with in my life. Lack of appreciation from my peers....but I learned something today which I knew but hearing it again from someone else; someone my age made it open my eyes....God sees all my giving of myself to others although they do not say "thank you," "I appreciate that," or give any other form of gratitude I know THE LORD, MY GOD sees my works. I know it is better to give than receive I am far too blessed to be looking for someone to give me something. I feel like everytime I give of my time, knowledge, wisdom, money, food, clothes, I am doing works for the Lord..........but I am not perfect I need to work on doing things for the glorification of Him. I am so quick to give of myself to people but I do not give enough time to God. I need to commit more time to my Bible....I honestly feel that it is basic instructions before leaving Earth, a book written by the Lord. All we need to do is pick it up and read......it is packed full of answers to any questions we may have as humans. Why things are a certain way...what we need to do as people, Christians and Children of God.
I HAVE A PRAISE REPORT!!
COMING SOON IN NEXT BLOG.....................................
I am so UNAPPRECIATED
My first mistake was not writing this last night as soon as everything happened...but shit I was too tired so I crashed as soon as I got home.
Anyway let's start from the beginning of my so unpleasant evening. Two of my closest friends, CC and MP. We were planning to go to Chipotle to eat last night. MP was just moving into her apartment so she was cleaning it out. Anyway I talked to her on the phone and told her I was coming to pick her up....she then said well "we are hungry, can you bring us something to eat!" Mind you we were supposed to be going out to eat but she wanted me to bring food for her brother, his fiancee' and her family. I was like "yea sure that's fine" so she recited an order to me for KFC and asked that I stop and get a pop for everyone. Fine whatever me being the sweet considerate individual that I am I decided to do it. Well I still had to pick up CC.
Before arriving at CC's house MP called again asking to borrow CC's dish detergent......starting to get agitated.
Ok so I sat at CC's for a minute....looking at her Wedding album and noticed it was nine o'clock...so I called MP and told her KFC was closed (shit in Topeka, everything close early) So MP recited a complicated McDonald's order to me...then had the nerve to change it before we hung up the phone. Her ass was laughing as she told me too...I was beginning to become even more pissed! CC and her husband AC were sitting back listening to my frustration....then the phone rings. It's was my friend.....I had told him I would bring him a burrito from Chipotle so he could try it. Anyway he is calling to tell me he needs a drink as well......That added fuel to the fire...I was like I can't stand Black people (AC, CC's husband interjects, well what are you then? I laughed and said "brown!") What I want to know is AM I THE FUCKING DELIVERY GIRL OR SOMETHING I MEAN DANG! The phone was ringing non stop; do this, do that, I need I want....WHAT ABOUT ME?? what about what I need and want???
Sorry back to the story....CC, her kids and me get in the car and head west. I decided to go to Chipotle first since they closed early....mistake. MP calls again where you at...what u doing? You have the food yet? All these questions I quit answering the phone, I let CC get it. Anyway the night ended with MP canceling her food order and me taking a burrito to my friend, which he didn't like. All my running around went ignored and unappreciated. Instead of thank you's I got why didn't you bring this or that. I wanted this.....mind you every last one of these fuckers have cars. There were at least three cars at MP's house. I felt a cloud of stress leave when she said forget the order but with that came bitchiness....I swear people in this town are a fucking trip!!
Wait wait hold up let me tell you this...the mind blower! Your gonna be cracking up.......I don't even like Chipotle and I was gonna go eat there anyway!
Since people know I am so sweet and reliant they expect me to be available at their beaconing call. Come over, not later right now!, I want you to do this, do that......I need, I want....its like they own me but no one does. I am not legally tied to anyone at this point in my life.
I'm Free, Single, Sexy THAT'S ME (just a side note) Thank You Mya
Well anyway I am just fed up...I have had it up to here with people not appreciating me......having me in their life....my time is precious and valuable.
I am a Child of A Risen Savior and I refuse to let my life be controlled by someone who does not even appreciate my existence. That's enough venting for one evening.
Alright I am back.............Maybe I should start another blog.........I think I will!
