Stand Strong
I've been careful with telling others about my blog site because I have revealed some rather secret information. Its finally bitten me...right in the butt.....received my first hater comment on a previous blog. Not sure of how to evaluate the situation besides the fact that's it's not a true statement. I just wish people would leave well enough along. Be happy for others instead of attempting to bring them down, oh well life goes on and so will mine. I am reminded of a comment left on a blog I frequent when the author announced his new relationship status......................
Anonymous said...
"Well I am happy for you to the fullest!! Enjoy what you have. Don't let rumor's and Lie's come between you. People might just start saying that you have been doing thing's that are not true..be strong my friend what goes around does come around. Jealousy is a terrible thing and when you find happiness as a person, there is always that one bitter woman. I hope you have not scorned many, or lied on any. Take it from one man to another......bask in these feeling's and absorb them they are great. "I am gonna take this comment and run with it! I will not let anyone destroy our happiness...things are hard enough as it is why let something so small like a hater comment destroy what we're trying to built. I won't! I am gonna STAND STRONG!!
On My Mind
I just had a few things on my mind that I wanted to release.
Somewhat of me venting.........
I am unsatisfied with my current status in school and life. I feel as if I have failed myself as a black woman attempting to surpass the stereotypes. The best thing I can say is I have not been knocked up by some guy. I can still make it out of this nightmare because there is no one depending on me.
I am doing this school thing for myself, so I can succeed and be able to support myself and children when the day arrives. It's true I am a struggling girl who always seems to turn to the wrong "people" for help.
When I should be looking to God...I seek humans.
I think a lot of us make this mistake.
I could go on all day about things I do not like or are dissatisfied about within myself but I am gonna spare y'all of my pity party. I ought of be sleep but there's much moving about in this brain of mine. I just basically finished my accounting project....which is good even though I may fail the class anyway...I'm praying for a miracle. I missed an exam in this class....not sure how....I swear that lady didn't tell us we were having one!! Anyway I am starting to get long winded....back to topic.
On a positive note....I am slowly understanding accounting and losing weight!
I think for too long have I longed for a perfect male companion that I thought once I got one I would be complete.....but how can I want someone who doesn't exist so bad?
I should be focus on school and getting done but my mind is elsewhere. I have these strong feelings that I am kept bottled up....I am ready to explode! I may have fallen too hard this time. But maybe thats ok...maybe life as I know it will not be over.......this is just something I have to deal with one step at a time. I am afraid of coming on too strong..sometimes it scares people away. I love hard which isn't always good. I probably shouldn't publish this but I don't think my blog is read anymore anyway...been too long since my last one. So here are my feelings out in the open for everyone to view.....I'm gonna go to bed now.
Lord, please provide strength and courage for the new day. I am a sinner, please hear my cry.
