Thursday, June 29, 2006

I am Blessed!

I Am Blessed!


Most of us have heard the term too blessed to be stressed! Well I am a living being who can honestly say THAT IS SO TRUE!!
I am my "mother's child," this is a phase I like to frequently use to describe myself. It means just that....I am naturally a only child and I have seen the perks to that title. I do not possess all of the stereotypes that come along with the title though. Most people assume a lot of negative thoughts about only children...Being up tight, spoiled, self-centered the whole nine yards. Anyway
When I say I am blessed it means that the Lord has blessed my parents and me in life. I am a full-time college student who is not required to work my way through school....I will have to work upon graduation to pay off loans but who doesn't! I am not a lazy bum though...I have a part-time job on campus. All of my bills are gratefully paid by my parents. The income I generate takes care of any items that I feel like I have to have...My wants. I know the Lord is on my side....He shows me that every morning when I open my eyes. I wake up to a four-walled bedroom with a roof over my head. I do not go to bed hungry unless it is by choice. I am clothe every single day with clean clothes and I drive a reasonably new car. I know the Lord is the strength of my life and my salvation. He provides for my family everyday and I am thankful that I know him in the parting of my sins. I am not trying to preach to anyone I am simply showing appreciation to my Lord and Savior!

Thank You Jesus for saving me and supplying all my needs....I know my health comes from YOU!

posted by A Rare Commodity @ 6/29/2006 12:15:00 PM 1 comments

Monday, June 26, 2006

A Girl's Best Friend


------This is a tribute to the guys I know who have remained my "friend" over the years.

People of the world we live in today often perceive that women and men can not remain friends without having a sexual attraction. Contrary to popular belief, men and women can be friends!
I'm a junior at one of the wackiest universities in Kansas. I refuse to reveal the name of the school. Anyway other students at my school feel as if it is almost impossible for a guy and girl to hang out strictly as friends. If they ever see you hanging out together grabbing a bite to eat or catching a movie they automatically assume its a date! I sometimes can't stand that word date I mean what actually constitutes a date? Who has the authority to determine if its a date??
A few years back... well let me start when I was in high school....I knew of this guy. He was pretty popular, talented artist but like anyone else in HS he was a rebel. So I did not talk to him besides we are a couple years apart. Anyway time passed and this particular guy started "talking" to a good female friend of mine. She liked him a lot....So much she did anything for him. Well I gave her shit about talking to him because he was goin' through a divorce and had a daughter. She didn't care cause she liked him so much. Anyway since I am naturally a great person to hang around...lol.... he and I started hanging out....thats just what we did, hung out. Whenever there was a good movie showing that both of us wanted to see we would call each other up and go to the movies mind you we are friends so we always paid for ourselves. Same thing when I was hungry; I would call him up and asked him if he wanted to grab a bite to eat. Anyway this friendship went on this way for months during the summer. We were not attracted to each other. We talked about any and everything that best friends talk about. Well my female friend could not get down with this after she "caught" us together one night. It was a hilarious scene. I try to re-enact it in my mind just for a good laugh. Anyway long story short. She seen us, got pissed off and assumed I was this horrible person who was sleeping with this guy (my good friend) behind her back. Not once had we shared a intimate moment....... Females I tell you.
Well she never trusted me again so as a result I lost a friend I have known since middle school because she let a man come between us. I vowed to never let this happen again..its so ridiculous. But in spite of all that I did gain a great new best friend!! So Thank You Carlos for being the different one!! Your like a big brother I never had.



I tell you to this day I still have a problem having females as friends. They always think you want "their man." There must be something wrong with me......not!!!

posted by A Rare Commodity @ 6/26/2006 03:32:00 PM 0 comments

Love & Me

Love & Me

My friend said my posts have been all mushy...I'm a girl what can I say. Anyway.....this one is even mushier so you have been PREWARNED, lol.

Love is a strong point in my life. I love MY LORD AND SAVIOR, JESUS CHRIST, I love LIFE, I love MY FAMILY, FRIENDS, and most importantly I love MY LIFE!!
I have for too long relied on the love of others, sometimes too much. I am often in turn hurt by people of the opposite sex. I usually fall too hard and too quick to a sweet talking man who catches my eye. After numerous heartbreaks and letdowns I have decided to make a change in myself. I would not necessarily say I am hard on men but I refuse to let them walk over me any longer. I stand FIRM in my decision.
Just recently I was introduced to a man who is a few years older than me. Personally I have always had a fear of talking to older men but since we are just friends, its all good. Anyway he and I have been building this friendship over the last month. I have spent a lot of my time with him and often I wonder am I falling for him??
I know I'm not but since my time is precious I wonder why am I with him daily if he is only my friend. (a good friend of mine asked me the same question, I have no answer for her.)
You know the song...you say he's just a friend, lol. I am constantly reminded of that song.
Each morning I wake up............... he is on my mind.......before bed every night he is usually the last person I've talked to. I know we may not ever be anything more than friends........but I believe, one day, things will change. lol.
We have both admitted that we like each other but our lives go in different directions. I am content with being his friend!

I am well aware that men come and go in the lives of women. Like most women the concept of love is nothing new in my life; I've been in love twice in my life. I've been hurt, felt used, mistreated and unappreciated. A man can tear down a woman and never know. I am not a victim of mental, emotional or sexual abuse....my heart goes out to those women. As a I bring this to a close I just want to say to my "friend" I like you a lot...I mean "I really like you" we may never be anything more than what we are today...may not share anything more but just remember we were friends first and that's how I want it to end.

posted by A Rare Commodity @ 6/26/2006 02:32:00 PM 0 comments

Friday, June 23, 2006

A weakness for love

Ever since I can remember I have had a weakness for love and the affection of a man. As a young girl growing up my father was not in my home. I have known my father all my life but I did not have a relationship with him. When I was born my parents tried the marriage thing...It did not work out. So they divorced after less than a year of marriage. During their separation my dad was hit by a drunk driver which as a result confined him to a wheelchair. For the last eighteen years my father has been in a wheelchair learning everyday how to do everything over again....Most things that we as walking beings take for granted. My dad will never walk again, he is sick often from fluid building up in his body, one entire side of his body is paralyzed and he has been learning to speak all over again. His speech has improved dramatically over the years though. Since I live so far away from my dad and only see him once a year I fear I may never get to know him. My father has loved me all my life but he will never will able to show me that love and affection I required as a young woman. We do not talk on the phone very often because it is quite frustrating trying to understand what he is trying to tell me. I think because of not having a father figure in my life for ten years has somewhat had an effect on my growth. I seek acceptance from men and we all know many out there want only to harm you. I have been trying to make a change in myself....I know I do not need a man but like any other woman I want the love and affection of a man. This is something I will have to cope with in order to make it in this "man's world."

posted by A Rare Commodity @ 6/23/2006 03:55:00 PM 3 comments